Tape 036LondonReel VERDICTJJ

I'm gonna admit that

The words

I honestly don't think what I'm wearing is a contradiction

to the racism that I experience on a daily basis.

If anything, I feel like there's. There's an explanation.

Okay. Yeah. Yeah.

When society does

not place value on you, like, as a

human being, you're gonna.

You're gonna look

to ulterior things, you're gonna look to other things that hold value

and place that upon yourself to actually be recognized within

a society. And I feel like that's what is low key happening with

a lot of other black people. And like,

people of color in general. Like, we ain't valued.

So it's almost as if we

deal with trauma

like black men deal

with trauma by. By getting rich. And

yeah, you can say what you want about that. That's.

But that's. That's the truth.

If we look at people like Bill Gates, he gets praised

for wearing modest clothing,

like for quote, unquote, underdressing. But

people are forgetting the fact that his white privilege

allows him to underdress because society still

places value on him as a human being.

But if you were to see a black person underdressed more

time, society just thinks

you're a nobody.

So there is a correlation

between what I wear and how I Want to be perceived,

and it's mad. And I'm gonna admit that

wearing certain. Yeah,

this is a freaking difficult conversation to have.

It's so intricate.

00:03:06 – 00:05:20JJ

The room

A couple of minutes after the opening, second pass at the same argument, and this is where I stopped defending and started explaining.

When society won’t place value on you as a human being, you reach for things that already hold value and put them on yourself so that you are recognised at all. Then I said the sentence people fight me hardest on — that Black men deal with trauma by getting rich — and I said it without softening it, because it isn’t a compliment to anyone. It describes what happens when recognition is for sale and only some people are charged.

Then Bill Gates, again: praised as humble for dressing plainly, because the room has already decided what he’s worth. And then the admission I’m proudest of on the whole tape. There is a correlation between what I wear and how I want to be perceived. It’s mad, and I’m going to admit it. I could have told the camera that clothes meant nothing to me and my critics had made it all up. Cleaner, yes. Also a lie.

I followed it with the most honest line I have ever said about my own arguments: this is a freaking difficult conversation to have. It’s so intricate. It still is.

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Fireflies · diarised audio transcript

VERDICT transcript, day one · Speaker 1 · turns 00:01:35 + 00:03:39 + 00:04:42

Speaker 1 = JJ · anchored on 3 lines

Time

FCP captions · the cue lines

VERDICT captions, day one · 00:03:06.1–00:05:20.4

Provenance

The canon index

VERDICT master index v1.1 · V19-02, V19-03, D2-NEW-01

DivergenceMinor only — the captions drop two words. The transcript is printed.

Testimony, not fabrication.

The echo

Spring 2021

the same Bill Gates sentence, months earlier → Tape 008

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ADMITa reading of the word — not of the passage

The word · EXCALIBUR

ADMIT

Gematria 47 · root 2

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The seat · OVAL TABLE

6B B♭ Major

Camelot wheel 24 seats

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The element · MATTER

Ag Silver

Atomic № 47

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🔒 verified bridge 19b871bf A reading, not a claim. Read any word →

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THE FILM · A FEATURE DOCUMENTARY AM I REALLY FREE? decoding FREEDOM itself Enter the question