Tape 024LondonReel DOCTRINEJJ

Robbed from knowing that side of me

The words

Growing up in Europe and all over Europe,

literally, with a colonized education system,

that's what makes it harder to identify.

Because I do not know

one. Like. Like,

I do not know, like, one side of who I am

because it's so whitewashed and it's so.

I don't.

They don't teach me about, like, African kings and queens.

They teach me about Shakespeare.

They don't teach me about

even, like, the genocide in Congo, but they will

talk about the Holocaust. Like,

and I'm not trying to compare tragedies, but I

think it's so important for black people, and

even people of color in general to, like, know their history. But I feel

like I've been robbed from knowing that side of me.

00:32:32 – 00:33:18JJ

The room

The interviewer asked whether I struggle to identify, being in the middle. I blamed the syllabus, and I still do.

I grew up across Europe inside what I called, on tape, a colonised education system. They taught me Shakespeare. They didn’t teach me African kings and queens. They taught the Holocaust and said nothing about the genocide in the Congo. I said on tape that I wasn’t comparing tragedies, and I wasn’t. I was comparing curricula. One half of me was on the timetable. The other half wasn’t taught at all.

Robbed is the word I chose, and I chose it deliberately. A theft is not an absence. Something that belonged to me was in the room, and someone decided I would not be given it.

Everything the film is about happens after this tape. The first thing ever withheld from me was a history lesson.

The receipt

Words

Fireflies · diarised audio transcript

DOCTRINE transcript · Speaker 1 · turns 00:32:33 + 00:32:58

Speaker 1 = JJ · anchored on 4 lines

Time

FCP captions · the cue lines

DOCTRINE captions · 00:32:32.4–00:33:18.8

Provenance

The canon index

DOCTRINE master index v1.1 · D2-14, D2-27, D2-28, D2-30

DivergenceThe passage ends before an exchange the two transcripts attribute differently.

Testimony, not fabrication.

The echo

/academic

the written record from inside the same education system

The decode

ROBBEDa reading of the word — not of the passage

The word · EXCALIBUR

ROBBED

Gematria 46 · root 1

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The seat · OVAL TABLE

11B A Major

Camelot wheel 24 seats

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The element · MATTER

Pd Palladium

Atomic № 46

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🔒 verified bridge 19b871bf A reading, not a claim. Read any word →

The mesh

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