You can't win

00:22:36“But you know, what people don't realize is that even in

the uk, literally, black girls often,

and this is so sad, but they've had to literally

straighten their hair

or wear a more Eurocentric

wig when going to a job interview.

Basically, they have

tone down their blackness.

And this is happening.

And this is happening.”

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“But where do you draw the line?

Because you want to be your authentic

black self, but at the same time, you don't want to

lose out on opportunities.”

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“But do you feel like that's problematic?”

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“But you can't win. You can't win.

That's what I'm deep in. Because I'm even looking.

I'm just Looking at my life

and like situations where I've had to,.

Let me not even say where I've had to, where I have chosen to be.

And I like, I don't like speaking about this,

but there's been situations where I have been silent in the past

where I have not spoken out.

If I were to have spoken out, I might not even be in the,

we might not even be filming this.

So it's so problematic because I

want to embrace my identity and my full identity,

but at the same time I will get punished if I do right. And there are

certain moments in life where you literally in this colonized society are

left with no choice but to suck it up because

you can't get where you want to go if you.”

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“But what I then think is even more problematic is

like when we do get accepted for certain

jobs or when we do get admitted

into like high ranking universities,

then we get

like criticized for it, saying, oh, that's

just because you're black.

Oh that's just, oh that's just because you're filling a diversity

quota. And then they undermine that achievement.

Like I just, you can't win.”